Over the hill to the county line, crying,

I finished Saiunkoku Monogatori today, and cried all the way through the last few episodes- the comparisons they made between Sa Sakujun and Shi Ryuuki, that the only difference between them was the number of people they had to love was very depressing. The whole, Sakujun threatening to kill Shi Seiran thing, because he "wouldn't let someone who had others to love" take away the only person Sakujun did, was depressing in itself, mostly beacause I related to that feeling.


When you have precious few individuals that you honestly care for, you get horribly jealous of people who take those individuals away from you, people who don't need them, taking them without even realizing how much you need them.

Because there's so few people you can say you love, you treasure them all the more. The more people you claim to love, the less love you have to give them. The fewer people you love, the deeper you can afford to love them. If that care is too deep, they can't understand it, and it terrifies them, so you have to restrain yourself, because you'll lose them. But those sorts of people who can't understand the purity of that kind of care can't return it, so you end up burning yourself either way.

I've stopped enjoying the group-yay anime series as much, as well as school-based series, probably for that reason.

The world is made up of balance and reciprocity. For all my luck in work, school and travel, I'm cursed when it comes to people.

Through the red lights, flying,

Yeah, so, I went to Greece. And now I'm back. Well, I've been back for about a week, but I didn't feel like posting anything. So I didn't.

Whatever plant this is, I want one. It's a thorny bush, with mostly red & orangey flowers, but a few pure yellow ones.

It's getting troublesome to upload pictures everyday, because I have to spend 3 minutes or moving the card to my MP3 player which plugs into my USB port, then transfer the files, then pick one out & edit it.

I should buy a camera cable to make the process easier.

A tree snapped in half the other day, we had a windstorm. It wasn't a big tree, but still.



I wonder about myself a lot, in regards to sanity. I spent a couple minutes pacing by the front door waiting for the neighbors across the street to go inside so I could go get the mail. I'm still waiting. It seems like Mom & kids are visiting Grandparents.






I bought two more video games. I don't need them, and I don't really play all that much anymore. But. I bought them anyway. There were a good deal, and all. 12$ a piece for new games: Drakengard and Samurai Legend Musashi.
Musashi is like the Kingdom Heart's precurser, Square Enix should sue itself for plagiarism.
Drakengard is pretty good, it's one of those real-time battle games that I'm so terribly bad at, but I have yet to die on Easy. Go me. (I'm already stuck at the third major boss on Musashi, which is also a real-time fighting game..)

Hahah! They've gone inside! I can check the mail- in which there will be NOTHING FOR ME! But, once I've got it in my head that I need to check the mail, I can't put my mind to anything else until I do.

I'm gonna drive all night,

My brain hurts.

And I probably won't come back around again.

Had one of those moments.

You know, when at one point in time you contemplate about where you're going to be in the future.

And it hits you. All of the sudden, it's the future, and you're nowhere near where you thought you'd be.

I need to stop having odd things happen to me when I drive.

The day you went away, girl,

The phones went down today for work.

So. I sat around doing nothing for half an hour before they sent us all home.


Which, it's a shame to not make 40$ today, but, I used the time to study for my finals tomorrow.

I'm not expecting great results. But whatever. I defined every term on the study guides they gave us. That's my equivalent to studying.

After finals, just to write the two finishing pages on my Psych media review.

Greece soon. Then...work. Then school. Then work. And more school.

..and then what?

And the burn that I put on my arm,

Work gave out a generous helping of free kettlecorn popcorn today to its employees.

I've decided that I like kettlecorn popcorn better than regular popcorn.

Classes officially end on the 10th. I take my final on the 4th, though I still have two pages of a final paper to write.

I'm looking forward to ending this farce of an education.
I forget everything almost immediately, anyway.










It rained. So the worms were out.

Gonna get in the car with a smile,

There was a couple walking their large dog through the parking lot this evening, with the cool air just after the rain. I was jealous.

I used to think that if I was to be elementally aligned, it'd be with fire. As I grew up, I leaned towards wind. Now, it's definitely with water.

I love the weather. It may be raining at the top of the hill (where the house is at,) and in the valley as you start to enter town, it'd be snow. Then, as you'd go further east, it becomes rain.

On the way back, the valley was misty, and the top of the hill was clear skies. Such interchangeable weather suit